Ever since my diagnosis I've thought this every time I meet someone new. I don't worry about my "old" friends because look, they're already in this 'friend boat'. They don't really have a choice. You don't hear people say, "I used to be her friend...until she got cancer". But meeting new people.....that has me thinking.
I wonder if they think it could be a short term friendship. Or if they don't want to get attached to someone with cancer, because...well...they have cancer. I get that, I'm easy to get along with, and I think people easily get attached. I'm fun and funny..who wouldn't love me??? :) Anyway....
I've been so fortunate to meet new people, you know, new people move into the ward, neighborhood, etc. I wonder how long it takes before they hear about my cancer. They always do. I can sort of tell when they find out by how they look at me. Sometimes its a * Wow, she has cancer* look, and sometimes it's a *oh, I feel sorry for you* look, and sometimes it's a *Hmm, you'd never know she had the big C* look. Either way, there's a look. I don't really mind. I mean, hopefully they'll see I'm still me. Same old me. Co-existing with cancer schmancer. I'm pretty much the same as I've always been...only I get a lot more IV's, and boy am I tired.
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